My Angel       
By: Animegal 


I laughed.  
I never laughed; I'm not good enough to laugh. I couldn't help 
it though, as I looked at this silver hared boy in front of me
smile; I couldn't help but grin as well.

Then he laughed and his whole body seemed to fill with this
joyful laughter. Soon I was laughing along with him. He could
always do that to me, ever since I first met him, we connected.
He was the only one I trusted, my only true good friend, the
only one I loved.

It was a love that defied all boundaries, a love that only we felt
for each other. It was hard for me; I am not good enough to
deserve love. I don't deserve such pleasures. For every time I
get close to someone they run. He never did.

And moments like this, where we'd both laugh at nothing, made
the whole world seem right. Sure, I had friends, but they didn't
care about me. They liked me because I was an Eva Pilot. I was
one of them.

A faceless warrior among the even faceless world. One man trying
to play God. My world revolved around this God's love. A love I never
found. A love that I will never find. A few phrases held me over, a few
of them good, a few of them bad.

But this boy. This angel. This enemy. He truly cared for me.
For once I was happy. I really was, but as in all my happiest
times, that died.

All my life my happiness ended in this coldness. It was always
my fault. I killed my own happiness. I am not worth anything. I
don't deserve to live.

I continued to laugh.

At a moments like this, I believe that I do. Why do I see this boy?
He is an enemy, my God would...no he is no God. He is only a
sadistic man, controlling others, claiming to be a God. I will never
understand him I don't care to.

I settled my laughing as the boy took my hand. If there is a God,
this boy could be it. He gave his life for me. He is truly an angel.
My angel. I am no more then an insect in his eyes, or I could be.
He loves me though, for he is my angel. I know this...

I close my eyes and feel my whole body burn as his lips lock
with mine.

Yes...moments like this...moments with him...I know it is true.
I made the right choice and he knows and loves me for it. At
moments like this, life is heaven, and he is my angel.